Dreaming secrets.

I had a dream about her last night.
It seemed so real.
Riding in a car together.
Her driving with that smile on her lips.
We are supposed to be going home,
for her to drop me off.
She is taking me home from something.
But she pulls over.
And gets out of the car.
Motioning with her hand for me to follow her.
I can't help but smile.
Just as I was running after her.
About to grab her hand as she walked.
I woke up.
And the strangest thing happened.
I almost got out of my bed.
And walked into the wall.
Because that was the direction I was going in my dream.
I had to fight the urge to walk.
This is the first good dream I've had about her.
The others were when we weren't talking.
When I had the nightmares about fighting to get to her.
And her being angry with me for trying to save her.
I wish life had a pause button.
Or a fast forward.
Or both.
I'm not going to want this day to end.
But instead of being sad,
I need to be happy.
And spend time with her while I can.
....
I feel like I'm going to cry.