Should I be angry or happy?

So today was a split right down the damn middle.
The day was amazing untill guard class.
I spent lunch with her.
Gave her the necklace, the rose, what I wrote and the picture.
The smile on her lips made me melt.
I still despise the bell because it means I have to leave her to go to class.
So i pretty much didn't.
5 minutes into biology I asked if I could get something to drink.
When I saw the door to her classroom I got an idea.
Ronald went in and got her for me.
'the councler needs to talk to her about running start'
She hates math.
She was so happy that I had gotten her out of it.
They wern't doing anything.
But I got to spend an extra 20-30 minutes with her.
I only have a day left.
It was worth it.
That was all amazing.
But then guard class came.
Turns out we arn't getting PE credits for color guard!
I have to take PE my senior year because of it!
It makes me so angry,
we have earned that credit!
Then Grostick began arguing with the whole guard.
He wants the dance team and guard to be one team.
To just eliminate the dance team from the highschool.
I was shaking because I was so angry by the end of class.
Of course when I walked back in he had to say 'we are all good christians'
It made me want to rip something apart.
But I have more self control than that.
Insdead I shook and went back to math class.
But after school when I went to wait for her.
Ian put his hands around my throat.
I freaked.
It was the last straw.
I began sobbing and shaking so hard that it hurt.
Jenny had to hold me untill I calmed down enough.
I couldn't even talk.
Then she came out of her class and saw me.
I scared her.
I feel bad about that,
she ended up shaking as well actually.
But we walked behind the school and she hugged me,
she even held my hand as we walked,
she didn't say anything,
she just let me calm down.
And thats exactly what I did.
Then we went over to the junior high,
to see that special teacher of mine.
She saw how I acted towords her and knew we were dating immidiatly.
I can't help it.
That woman knows me to well for my own good.
Once everyone left the classroom she let me hold her hand.
She was so tired though.
I leaned over and layed with my head on her leg,
still holding her hand.
It made me smile,
a lot.
It's kinda funny.
A goodbye kiss even after all the bad.
Sent me away smiling and giddy.
So overall,
the day was amazing.
Even with a breakdown.

On another note,
school is out.
There went our last day.
It is going to hurt to say goodbye to her.
I know it is.
But the dreaded day is finally upon me.
Standing over me like a choking shadow.
I'm going to miss her,
so much.
This is going to be hard.
But we can get through it.
She is worth the wait.
So very worth it.