Where did my mom go?

I really wish I knew.
So this morning I woke up and was very quiet.
And it took me a long time to get up.
When I finally did get up I realised why.
I'm sick,
and I feel like shit.
But mom wants me to go out to Freds house.
But I didn't want to when I'm sick.
He will make me do things I dont want to do.
Pester me to get up.
Tease me for being lazy.
And I am in a bad mood from being sick.
Bad things would happen.
And mom even aknowledged that.
She said herself I would just ruin her whole day.
But when I told her I was sick she just rolled her eyes,
and said 'greaaat'
Like i'm some burder to her.
She has never done that before.
But when I told her I didn't want to go to Freds she threw her bag down.
Walked away.
And heaved the biggest sigh.
Which made me feel terrible.
And since i'm sick I don't have much willpower to keep myself from crying like I normally do.
So thats what I did.
I cried.
My mom used to be the type of person who when I said I even felt remotely sick.
She would offer to take the day off work to take care of me.
Where did my mother go?
He is changing her....
Mom came into my room asking if she could borrow 20$
Because she wanted to buy more vodka.
Because his brother drank it all.
And she finally saw I was crying.
So in the same voice she had been using when it felt like she was yelling at me in a quieter voice.
She asks 'why are you crying?'
'I feel bad'
'well not bad enough to go with me!'
Thats the last think I remember her saying to me.
She might have said bye.
No I love you.
No I hope you feel better.
Nothing.
... I'm going back to sleep.

Oh, and I had a nightmare last night.
In it I kept lieing to her,
and then covering it up.
It bothered me,
a lot.
I don't lie to her so watching myself do it in a nightmare.
Made me angry at myself.
I've been awake for 20 minutes and already i'm sick of being awake.