Dreading...

I am dreading the dances next year.
I want to go to them because I don't like missing that sort of thing.
But I realized how miserable and bored I am when I go alone.
And I am to chicken shit to ask anyone unles I am dating someone.
And the dating life isn't exactly looking to existant for me.
The biggest downside is he wont be there.
He always went by himself.
So when I got ditched,
and when I got left again,
he was there.
We stayed with eachother the whole night and had fun.
And he was the only one who wasnt there with someone so I didn't feel terrible.
Because I wasnt taking him away from someone else.
We were just two friends who didn't have anyone else to turn to.
But he moved away.
So I am going to be stuck by myself.
I kinda don't want to go to the dances because of it.
I don't want to be alone all night if whoever decides to ditch me like the last two.
But I know that she will beg me to go anyways.
Even if I don't go with someone.
And I don't ask my friends to dances,
I don't mind them asking me.
But for me to ask them feels akward.
I dunno,
I guess I should just forget about it until the time actually comes,
who knows,
maybe something will have changed by then.
Oh,
He just reminded me.
I saw three butterflys at ozzfest.
Do you know how wierd it is to see butterflys? at Ozzfest?!