I'm scared...

I'm scared I wont find a ride tomorrow.
That I will be left alone because of the other two girls going.
That I will be a total screw up.
That I will look like an idiot.
That I will damage our name.
That something will get me into trouble like last time.
This is one of the few things,
if not the only thing,
that I am extremly insecure about.
I REALLY care how people see me when it comes to this.
My self esteem plummets when it comes to this.
I am not confident at all.
Even if I act like it.
That is only because how comfterble I am around my own team.
But only two other girls are going from our team this time.
*sigh*
While I sit here and be terrified that I wont get a ride,
I am going to go read.
I really wish someone was here.
Or someone would answer their phone.
Oh well.
'Speaking of LUST' a collection of stories is what i'm reading.
It is about one of the seven deadly sins.
So far it is really good.
Really fucked up.
But really good.