Ugh!

I bother myself.
I don't want to be manipulative or seen as manipulative.
I don't want to lie to the people I care about.
I want my body to stop reacting so violently to stress.
I don't want people to feel guilty because of me.
I want to be able to say the right thing.
I don't want to feel like I have made so many mistakes.
I don't want to be such a clingy person.
I don't want to have separation anxiety.
I don't want to go into deep fits of thought from every book I read.
There are so many things I don't want to be...
But I don't know where to start to change them.
...
I wish I didn't believe everything my mom says about me.