I feel like I need to write, or talk, or run, or something!

I'm not exactly sure what about,
but it will come as I ramble on,
So guard camp was amazing.
We had an hour and a half of dance class each night
an hour and a half of rifle or sabre
and an hour and a half of flag,
each day.
Woke up at 7am.
Oh,
we went on hikes every day.
The first one was over 4 miles all together.
I learned a lot.
And made a bunch of new friends.
Had a gay boy think I was stalking him.
It was quite interesting.
And I fell down a large gravel hill.
And dropped my flag on my bare foot.
Ended up bursting a vein in my foot by doing that.
It's all bruised and green since it is hard for me to bruise.
oh and someone in my cabin looked at me after i said i had big dogs,
(she knows me from last year)
and said 'thats so dyke, i love it!'
I laughed so hard.
It was all around amazing.
And there was no cell reception so I wasnt bothered with the drama of life.
The first night we all slept at the highschool.
Very amazing.
Took them over a half hour to wake me up.
I was apparently poked with a sabre,
beat with pillows,
sat on,
got my sleeping bag jerked off me,
had luggage laid on me
all in an attempt to wake me up.
It was quite entertaining.
Oh and all of the rhapsody members that were at camp know me as a cluts now.
Because of the whole falling down the hill thing.
Anyways,
Him and mom got into a fight today.
And I fought with him as well.
When he left I went into the living room and turned his music all the way down since he always leaves it all the way up.
When he got home he came into my room and asked who turned it down.
So when I said he did he got pissy and said next time i was gone he would shut down my computer.
I told him to go ahead.
When he left my room he cranked his music,
so i put static-x in my sterio and put it on max volume,
mom and his daughter came in here.
Our music drowned out his.
It was pretty cool.
I got a video of us all head banging.
We laughed so hard.
Then we were outside for a long while being idiots and having fun.
Which made him even madder because we wern't walking on egg shells to make him happy.
he is a bastard of a drunk.
We both feel bad for his daughter.
I got so fed up with his idiotic drunken asshole behavior that I almost called a friend and had them pick me up.
it was pretty bad.
I got pretty angry.
One thing he said is still making me angry,
he said it to my mom
'no wonder that other guy beat the shit out of you'
that same guy slammed me agenced the wall by my throat.
And beat the living hell out of my mom quite a few times.
I refuse to talk to him tomorrow unless he wants to hear why i'm pissed at him.
I think I am going to go to a friends house tomorrow.
I got invited over.
Oh,
I also found out I live a 2 minute drive to a friends house of mine.
Also found out that mom would let me ride my bike to her house.
If that friends mom would allow me to come over at least.
I'll have to ask her about that.
So there is something wrong with my computer,
I came home from camp and it was totally effed up.
His daughter got something on it and it isn't working right.
I can't watch youtube videos so I don't have the right song for my ab workouts.
it really sucks but I cant do anything about it.
Also I found out our capitan isn't coming to band camp.
This is going to test our team a lot.
And cause a lot of stress.
Especially for _______ and I since we actually went to guard camp and are coming to band camp.
I also have a goal.
I don't want to miss any practices this year.
It is going to be hard since I am going to have to stay after school every day of practice because of where I live.
I can't wait to get my permit.
Then it will be one step closer to a licence.
Ugh.
I need to figure out a way to get my friends b-day gift to her before her b-day.
I dont want to give it to her to early or after.
I will if I have to but still.
Seriously!
a 2 minute drive!
I dunno.
I guess life is just frustrating me at the moment.
So I don't trust a word that comes from a specific someones mouth.
This specific someone is a male,
that should tell anyone who I gave the link of this blogger to,
and who knows my life situations right now,
a pretty good idea of who I am talking about.
One person in particular should know exactly who.
I am getting pretty fed up with him.
I hate it that,
other than our capitan not being there.
Having him there is the only thing I am not looking forward to at band camp.
That and couch surfing for a week is going to be interesting.
I'm really looking forward to the first day of school.
Or at least the 27th
(or whatever date juniors get their school schedules)
but at the same time I don't want school to come.
Because school time means buying school clothes.
And that means contacting my father.
Whom I havn't talked to since my 16th birthday.
'and i swear i'll know your face in the crowd
and i'll hear your voice aloud
when your whispering
hey unfaithful i will teach you to be stronger (to be stronger)
hey ungraceful i will teach you to forgive one another
heres my kiss to betray
desperate to brush the lips of gray
do you feel hallow when you think of how i lied'
that song just came onto my ipod,
it is on shuffle.
I think i want to put it on repeate for a while.
I dunno.
Honestly I am not sure what the song is about.
I suck at interpreting songs.
But this one catches my attention a little bit.
Oh
So at camp we coreographed a dance to 'the bird and the worm' by the used.
I really like it.
Our instructor called it emo-tastic
and just to add to the effect he wore a shirt to dance every class that said
'emo kids have more fun'
it was quite interesting.
my mind is repeaing itself over and over while trying to think of more things,
so before I find something depressing to think about.
I think I am going to go to sleep.
Becaue I am extremly sick of having nightmares every night.
I wish I had more than just _____'s hoodie to sleep with.
The thought of going to sleep in an empty bed is definatly not appealing.
Kinda almost makes me miss that person who decided she
'dosnt want to deal with my bullshit anymore'
okay so i do miss her.
But I need to get over it I suppose.
I guess I need to get over a lot of things.
Told you things would come out as I rambled