What can I do...?

I hate break-ups.
I hate Lonely-ness.
I hate helpless-ness.
I hate regret.
I hate wondering.
I hate fighting.
I hate heartbreak.
I hate the look one someones face.
I hate being the one doing it.
I hate having it done to me.
I hate losing close friends.
I hate lies.
I hate promises.
Sometimes I even hate myself.
I hate my dreams.
I hate how I can't control my body feeling tired.
I hate finishing a book.
I hate being lost.
I hate all my mistrust.
I hate the feeling of sickness in my stomach.
I hate that I can't listen to those songs without getting sick or feeling pain.
I hate that one person can hurt another so badly with a simple action.
I hate thinking about the future.
I hate that I have so much hate in me.
I hate that I feel so lost.
I hate how desperate I can be.
I hate that I simply CANNOT help but mistrust.
I hate the jealousy I feel.
I hate the envy i feel.
I hate the fact that I have given up on some things.
I hate looking into their eyes.
I hate being forced to speak.
I hate that my body forces me to smile.
I hate the longing.
I hate how my head turns when I go there no matter what I do.
I hate the curiosity that pulls me to things I know I shouldn't go near.
I hate my own stupidity.
I FUCKING HATE that I hate so much.
I want to be rid of the anger that comes up so much more often.
I'm tired of feeling lost.
I'm tired of crying.
I'm tired of hating.
I'm tired of holding grudges.
I'm tired of watching them walk away.
I'm tired of feeling like this.
But what do I do?