I'm excited, even with the downsides

I'm staying at my cousins until late in the day on the 1st,
I had to cancel my date,
I prolly wont get to see someone who is visiting that I really wanted to see,
my poor friends wont get any time with me,
ect,
but I do get to stay away from my mother,
who I must say,
is being EXTREMLY pissy lately,
and it's making me angry,
anyways,
i'm very excited,
another entire week away from the one who makes me angry a lot lately,
I also found out about something else that causes a lot of peace with me,
calms a lot of fears and things that have upsetted me,
but what is very strange,
I called my mother by her name instead of mom today,
I didn't even realise I had done it,
I also had a thought,
about my cousins house,
and how I think i feel like this is more of a home than anywhere else,
I dunno,
it's true though