I need a good rant

I'm not entirely sure what to do,
haha,
I just realized this is going to sound like its comeing from a confused teenage girl,
I guess its about the time I act 'normal' for once,
who am I kidding,
I don't like 'normal',
I will never be the societys standard of 'normal',
i'm left handed,
I like girls,
i'm not christian,
I have piercings other than my ears,
I don't want to go to college,
I only live with one parent,
I don't change out of my pajamas when I go to school sometimes,
anyways,
this was not the point of this blog,
the point is something else,
so I was rediculously jealous last night,
watching him hold onto her,
watching him dance with her,
I probably never should have gone to that dance,
its even worse,
because I don't have much of a right to be jealous,
I don't plan on asking her to date me,
she said yes to him,
and I like Green as well,
And do be honest,
I can actually see things going places with Green,
the other day we were talking,
and she was trying to convince me to move in with her after highschool,
I said we would see when the time got here,
and we would see how things are between us then,
she said either way,
I dunno,
I actually found out the other day we were both afraid we liked the other to much,
And I was listening to songs from the movie we watched together,
god it made me miss her,
I was incredibly happy at her house,
hah,
she keeps telling me to move to her town,
some people might not like hearing those things,
but I do,
I have issues with feeling unwanted,
those things are very reassuring for me,
help me not be scared,
one thing I am slightly frightened about,
she doesn't know some of the issues I have,
then again,
i'm working on them,
and succeeding for the most part,
i dont think i'm going to get to sleep any time soon tonight.