Thank life for guard

So the practice I just had is exactly what I needed to snap me out of the funk i've been in,
the real test will be in the morning when I get up,
but half way through practice I was supposed to go in for the big impact of the show,
and I completely missed it,
for the first time in my guard career,
because I was thinking about Green,
and it all kinda fell into place,
my mood improved,
I began working harder,
I got hungry >.<
and so on,
so I just came home and tore into the pizza,
ate three pieces when I usually eat one,
drank a huge glass of root beer,
found out something that made me smile through text from Poet,
and when i'm done dinking around online,
i'm going to go take a MUCH needed shower,
use my new body wash,
extra shampoo and conditioner and brush my teeth really well,
change into clean fricking pajamas,
wash all my blankets and listen to music while I read and text the people I care about,
I still don't know what exactly what was wrong,
but i'm beginning to feel better,
which is nice,
its amazing how much the little things can mean,
a random hug,
a sweet little text,
just showing someone you are thinking about them,
LF doesn't know how much she helped at practice,
without even saying a word,
also,
I think I need to find more friends,
I am relying way to much on people that have no time for me