So...

I feel like I need someone to talk to,
but I want it to be in person,
I don't want to type it,
I don't want to text it,
I don't want to say it over the phone,
or written in a note,
or in fleeting bits while we pass eachother between class.
It feels like it has been so long since I just sat down with someone,
with no time limits,
and just talked
Okay it doesn't just feel like it,
it has been a long time,
I just don't know who to talk to
Jack is right,
I need to know when to ask for help,
and in my way I do...
i'm just to fucking indirect,
it confuses people,
or they just don't understand i'm reaching out for help,
I know I can just say "look I need your time,
I need your help,
I need someone to listen to me,
I need someone"
I could say any of those,
but i'm afraid to
afraid that the answer will be
'i dont have time right now, maybe later
or i cant help you right now,
or i'm busy'
because thats what it seems to be right now,
the people I feel I can talk to are busy,
or are upset with their own things,
I know the simple solution is to just take a chance...
but I don't want to take the chance,
and I know I really have no right to complain if I wont take the chance,
which I guess is why I don't complain anywhere other than here...
my head hurts.