Today

As I was walking back from the hospital,
I ran,
And as I ran,
I hit blackberry bushes,
hard,
and when I felt the pain from the thorns,
I just kept jerking my way through the bush,
the pain felt good,
made me remember why I used blades in the first place,
i'm terrified to go into my room and be alone,
I know i'll most likely do something stupid,
and I promised her I would text her before I did,
i'll break that promise if I am alone for to long,
becuase there is no way in hell i'm telling her,
i'm trying to make myself stop thinking of ways to do it,
it would probably help it the bloody spots on my hand and legs were covered with something,
...
I need a band aid.