Apparently everything is more complicated than I ever imagined.

I need to stop hiding,
I need to stop making everything about me,
everything I do,
some big secret,
I finally hands down,
bared everything to someone,
and all day I felt so much better,
so much more relaxed,
so I need to stop hiding,
I always say if people don't like me for who I am,
then I don't care,
well it isn't true,
all this hiding,
sneaking around,
lying,
it proves that wrong,
I really do care,
and I need to stop,
for my own sake,
i'm not healthy,
and only one person knows that,
I don't eat enough,
I don't sleep enough,
I don't talk enough,
I don't cry enough,
I need to stop holding it in,
i'm just terrified that certain people will leave,
if I tell them the truth,
and i'm not sure if I can handle that,
some of the people who I need to tell things,
can read this,
so if i've given you this link,
re-assure me you wont leave,
because i'm so scared that you will.