These emotions are dumb and these perceptions are spoiled

Whenever there are nights like these,
when no one seems to have time for me,
when I feel like I want someone,
or just feel lonely,
and every person I go to happens to be busy,
I begin getting upset,
and I think it is stupid of me to do,
I don't mean to,
it just happens,
I should just walk into my room right now,
curl up on my bed and do homework until I fall asleep,
but that isn't what I'm going to do,
I'll end up laying there until midnight or later hoping someone will talk,
hoping someone will listen,
you know...
I always used to say I don't need anyone,
but now I know,
that is complete bullshit.