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I'm afraid i'm going to lose her,
but at the same time maybe thats whats best for me?
I am not even sure anymore,
we've had so much time,
and at the same time so little,
if this is what it will always be like for us then I don't want it,
but at the same time will I be able to let it go?
With everything that has been going on that possibility seems so real,
then she finally speaks up again,
and all I can do is cry,
i've been so angry,
so hurt,
when the reasons are her almost being hospitalized,
again,
and mostly reasons not her fault,
I feel like such an ass