Stories

It is interesting to look at my own life from the outside,
I have stopped dancing,
stopped being spontanious,
I feel like I need to go on an adventure,
I'm having a hard time coping with being alone...
I'm so used to someone being around,
even if it was unhealthy.
I've found myself pushing people away just like I used to,
falling back into old habits,
habits that were never good in the first place.
not limited to the fact that it's 4am and i'm still awake.
Or that i've thought about recontacting people from my past,
people that I know fuck with my head.
Sometimes I just feel so lost in my own life.
I'm not sure I know myself anymore,
not sure that I know who i am or what i want.
I've burned so many bridges.

I wonder what would happen if I turned off my phone and vanished.