Things I have learned

I love footie pajamas,
So much that it is almost irrational,
I spend too much time watching tv,
And playing video games,
And not enough time walking my dog,
Whom has become my best friend,
I've developed fairly crippling social anxiety,
And have last so many connections,
I've been abused by a woman,
Even though I always told myself I would never let myself be,
I am somewhat a mom,
Even though I don't always feel like a good one,
I hate waking up to someone angry,
Ruins my entire day,
So many oddities within my own body,
Are entirely normal,
I have seasonal depression,
And am prone to irrational fits of rage,
I practically live off of chips and salsa,
And I want to learn Spanish,
I don't have conventional love,
I have a mutual partnership,
I have done so much damage to my joints,
That I will probably lose partial function of my right arm,
Connections are hard to get back,
I don't enjoy things I used to love,
Watching old performance videos still makes me cry,
I cry a lot less than I used to,
I also listen to much less music,
And have managed to get myself 10 grand in debt,
My car accident a year ago traumatized me all over again,
But I still feel comfortable in my camero,
I've gotten very good at being fake,
You kind of have to in a sales job,
I hate my job,
But it pays the bills,
I hold down two jobs without hesitation,
Because I don't always like to come home,
I used to hate being alone,
Now I kind of look forward to it,
A lot of myself has changed,
While a lot of what I used to hide,
Now has come to the surface aggressively,
A lot of the things you always quietly wondered about,
Can be fairly easily answered,
If you are comfortable enough with someone,
And you will learn,
They are pretty normal,
I don't read enough anymore,
And I don't write enough anymore,
I've also learned that all the thought I was thinking,
The ones that inspired me to write,
Are gone.